I posted a while back about my friend Nicole who lives in Nashville and her comments on Nashville TV about Obama Care. I love Nicole ~ she and I have shared our MS stories for the past 5 years, and as I mentioned before she is beautiful, talented and creative. She has volunteered to share her voice with me here on this blog ~ hopefully she will become a regular contributor. Welcome girl!
It’s the Mental Game that is Important in our Fight
If I’m honest I knew what it was when I woke up 5 years ago with numbness in my hands and feet. Denial is a powerful thing. I am an event planner and was in the middle of the biggest event I do all year. The day of the event was finally here and by the end I couldn’t even stand. I told everyone, including myself, that I was so stressed over the event that I had caused this reaction in my body.
I went home, got a good night sleep and convinced myself that if I just resumed my normal schedule that day I would be just fine. That didn’t work out so well… I made it as far as the parking lot of the Starbucks. There is just something about lying on hard, hot asphalt, staring at the sky that makes you confront your situation and melts that denial right away.
So, the MRI told me what I knew. I had MS. The same disease my mother was diagnosed with while training for a triathlon in the mid 80’s. This disease had left my mom paralyzed in a wheelchair and a shadow of her former self. I was scared. Very scared. I had what they called a “massive onset” which resulted in some paralysis and oh…. I went blind.
It is my personality to fight till I get what I want and what I wanted was the head of the MS department at Vanderbilt to be my doctor. He was not taking new patients. When he eventually took me he told me the best advice I have had this whole time. “You’re biggest challenge is going to be mental…. not physical.” See, I had seen the movie of my mom’s rapid decline and just knew that was the fate that awaited me.
Well, here we are 5 years later and I can walk, talk, type and SEE. I am responding well to Beta Seron, which ironically my mom participated in the clinical trials for but was too far gone to be helped.
I challenge everyone with MS to heed Dr. Moses words…your biggest challenge is mental not physical.
You can do it! You are doing great and the best you can! Slow and steady wins the race!
Nicole Cochran, January 30, 2011